So the dance wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, or have I just convinced myself otherwise? It was actually kind of nice. I did NOT kiss Brian, contrary to what he seems to be telling other people. Brian was nice and rather refreshing for me. I chose not to make my boobs look as small as possible and woe is me…more guys talked to me. Funny how that works, also very disgustingly awakening.
Tomorrow I find out if I made top ten for homecoming candidate. I am thinking of playing sick to save myself embarrassment. The only chance that I even have to make top ten is Rachel. They all know that I am her sister and everyone loves her. They all either want to be her or want to date her. I hate that I got short changed on the gene pool. I don’t think that I am some hideous beast or anything. It is just that she is so stunningly gorgeous. I wouldn’t mind seeing Nick sometime soon. I hate not having a cell phone; it would be much easier to have friends. Maybe I’ll have him over tomorrow. Which means I have to go to school. I have totally lost track of time today. I came down into my room after church to listen to music and paint. I have been down here for over six hours. It feels like I have been down here for maybe thirty. It is funny how you can get lost in your own world like that, I like it. Well, time to go force myself to sleep.
