October 2nd 2005

So I made top ten! What a relief, now I don’t care if I win. I was so nervous. I hate the way they announce the top ten. After the homecoming parade they gather all the candidates onto the football field. The whole school is sitting in the bleachers, including half the parents. Then the announcer announces them one by one. Of course, the guy I was partnered with got his named called for one of the first people. He let go of my hand and stepped forward. He said, “Don’t worry, they’ll call your name.” I honestly did not think my name was going to get called. I wanted to die right on the football field in front of the whole world. To make things even worse I look in the bleachers and I see Jake. Guess who he is with? That skank Sarah. My head was spinning in a million circles. All I could think of was how much I hated her for that. I wanted to run into the stand and ring her pretty little neck. She already ruined one relationship of mine. It is CLEARLY not okay for her to be hanging out with Jake. Then they called my name. I was so relieved, but then again I wanted to throw up. I was angry and happy all at the same time and let me tell you those two emotions do not mix well with your stomach. I could see my dad and he was happy, my mom was waving to me. The whole school was clapping and jumping around. Then it was just Sarah and Jake. I could have picked them out of a million people if I had to. My knees were so weak; all I wanted to do was cry. Then I did. When we walked off the field and accepted our sashes and flowers all I could think of was Jake and Sarah. I immediately went into the bathroom and sat in the nearest stall. I cried as silently as I could. The gloves on my hands were completely soaked with tears. So that is my perfect description of tonight. The end. Oh, wait…no its not. On top of all the emotions I was feeling I find Rachel and her friend Lauren are drunk at the game. The only thing I could think of was getting them out of there as quickly as possible. I knew I would spend the rest of my night babysitting two drunken high school kids. We went to Jarrod’s house and hung out with my “friends”. I tried everything I could to make them as sober as possible before I took them home at eleven. So anyways, if you don’t mind me I’m going to cry myself to sleep now.