Oh my gosh...I don't even have the words right now. I just found out I am pregnant. I don't know what to do. I went to the emergency room with my mom this morning because my sickness was not going away and I was sleeping eighteen hours or more a day. When I got there they kept asking me when my last period was. I thought about the date a million times in my head as I calculated that I was over two weeks late. How could I be so stupid? How did I not figure all of this out on my own? They gave me a urine test and asked me if I was sexual active. I kept saying no because my mom was sitting right next to me. The doctor came in and they gave me an IV of liquids because I was dehydrated. I kept telling myself that I was not pregnant and that they were going to come in and tell me I just have the flu. The doctor came in and gave me some medicine in my IV that would help with my nauseous. He said that it was going to make my vision a little different and I would get tired. He sat right next to me and looked at my mom. He asked me if I was sexual active again and I said no. Then he asked my mom to leave the room. That is when he said, "You are lying, you are sexual active because you are pregnant." I couldn't talk, I couldn't breath. I could feel the medicine kicking in and I was getting so tired. He asked me if I was going to keep it. I immediately said yes. I knew at least that much. I wanted this to all be a dream. He asked me if I wanted to tell my mom or if he should. I said I would tell her and she came back in the room. I tried so hard to hold back the tears. I just kept looking at my mom wondering how in the hell I was going to tell her and when. Thankfully the medicine was making me so tired, I fell asleep pretty quickly.
I don't know how I am going to tell my parents or even Jake for that matter. My whole life is going to change so quickly. I am so upset with myself. Why did I let this happen? Everything is going to be ruined. Things were just getting better with Nick and Steven was gone. Oh God, please let this all just be a mistake.
