It has been a while since I have wrote in here. I have been deadly ill like constantly nauseous and throwing up. I hate my weak immune system, this is the most hardcore flu I have ever had. It is strange because I feel better for a couple of days and then I feel worse again. I hung with Nick on one of my better days. I am so confused about how he feels about me. He has to know that I like him. Sometimes I think he likes me but other times I don't. This last time was a little different though. Sometimes I catch him looking at me like he is trying to figure me out or something. I have had those moments like that with him before where I look and as soon as we make eye contact we both look away but that didn't happen. We both just kept looking at each other. I was anticipating a kiss or something but then nothing. Guys change their mind about me a lot once they get to know me. I wanted to scream, "kiss me before you change your mind!" I am slowly going crazy trying to sort out all my different emotions right now. I miss Steven, I care about Jake and I really like Nick. I don't think I could pay anyone to switch lives with me.
